Fearlessness in simplicity

             Ive been tongue tied for awhile now, since my birthday to be exact. things have been very exciting since then however. ive developed a new friendship with a kid named Nathan, Nathan has something wrong with him. hes not all together and i havent had the courage to ask him what it is yet, but Nathan also has this happiness to him. there was a hoedown in cub and Nathan danced alone smiling,laughing, and there seemed to be no loneliness about him. Nathan isnt scared to be himself, hes open, brave and i admire him so much. Nathan inspired me to pursue a different kind of relationship one that i had been avoiding for so long, a romantic relationship. ive known for awhile that i had feelings for this person but my rules of not opening up, and waiting for the right moments had always held me back. i asked myself "Have you considered Nathan" and i realized that Nathan would shout his love through the halls fearlessly, he would write songs and write notes. he would display this love of his tirelessly, because thats how a man like Nathan does things he does them without pause, without thought, he goes for the gold and hopes for the best. So as i lay there heart beating through my shirt my skin melting at her touch i said it, i said those three words every bachelor hates to say, the most fearful words known to man i said I Love You.  I didnt expect her to say it back i definitely didnt expect any sexual favors, all i wanted was for her to know. This risk that i took was in response to a risk that she took in asking me to stay that night, and i promised myself i wouldnt let her take any more risks after that i would put my heart on the line and always hold hers above mines. always put her feelings first, and never do anything for my own gain, society may label me foolish my friends may think ive gone mad. i would like to think that this is love, it is unfailing, selfless, and holds the person or thing it loves above itself and it holds it firmly.